The upstairs floor boards started to creak and I knew my morning thought and reflection time was coming to a close. Time to close my books and my journal. Time to get up off the couch and get it started.
Now it's time for egg burritos and glasses of milk. It's time to figure out if it is an A or B day at school. It's time to think about supper and all the other things that would be called today.
I grab my pen and start writing it down.
Family Room Cleanse.
Lizzy pick up.
Show pig feed.
Thank you cards.
A day unfolding.
I've been thinking about my days lately. How to build a day that brings me more money. Can I do that with joy as well? How do you build a life, a line of days strung together, to hold contentment and pay the bills?
I picked up Ann Voskamp's "One Thousand Gifts" this weekend. It 's been sitting on my nightstand, tucked under a pile of other books. I have read it once before. Back then I even went out and bought a new journal specifically for writing down all the things I'm thankful for. I did well for a while and then I suppose I got lazy. I stopped writing down all the things, the small things, the everyday things, that go by unnoticed. I stopped saying thank you.
Gratitude is difficult. Discontentment and worry seem so much easier, they simply slide on without much thought. Gratitude takes work, takes thought, takes stillness to notice those things right in front of me and grab onto them, look at them, and say thank you.
This morning after my thought and reflection time, in the midst of the bacon frying for the egg burritos and with my pen in hand from writing my to do list, I looked up. I saw the back of Will's head sitting at the breakfast table. His head gets me every time. He is a 12 year old boy waiting for his breakfast but I see so much more in the back of that sweet head. Things only his mother can see. I see my little man. I see a baby with fuzzy hair with arms outstretched for me. I see a head wet from his night time shower, lying on his pillow telling me he loves me too.
So many things to see in the back of one head.
A reminder to say thank you.
A reminder that "my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:19)
A day unfolding.