How are you? Sorry I've been gone so long. I have no explanation except the one everyone has.
My world is wrapped in a gray fabric of fog this morning. I skipped a morning workout at the gym and decided instead to iron some of Farmer Boys shirts that have been sitting here, taunting, wanting to be taken care of. I also washed up dishes and counters, swept the floor and mopped. I suppose I did an in-home workout.
My kitchen table is currently my launch pad, holding things that must go with me when I leave the house. There's my grocery list, library books, my water bottle, lunch and some glass milk bottles that I exchange at the grocery store.
I'm almost ready to head out for the day.
My dear friend Deb, gave me a book when we were home in Canada. It's called, "The Greatest Gift", by Ann Voskamp.
It's an Advent book so last night before I went to sleep, I sat down in the living room warm with the glow of the Christmas Tree lights. I wrapped an afghan around my legs, set a pillow on my lap and opened and read her gift of words for December 3.
Here was her question for the day.
"What would you say if God asked you right now, Where are you?"
I'm here Lord. I'm here in one of my favorite places. I'm thinking about rest and trust and love. I have questions - it seems I always do - but I don't want to form them right now. They can wait.
For now can you come and sit with me for a while? We don't have to talk. I just want to sit beside you and be with you. I need you Lord. Every day I need you more. Everyday I say things or do things that I wish I could do over. It seems I'm best at making mistakes. I'm also good at noise and movement and forgetting you.
I'm here Lord. Thank you for always knowing where I am. Thank you for always being near, regardless of where it feels you are. Thank you.
The day's about to end. Let's sit here together. Still. Quiet. Rest.
I love you.
That's what I would say.
What would you say?